How Is yout Vacation Going? Oh..me too, i guess. Coco Keys Was a Blast. Sam and emily are wicked fun to be around and so is Sams family. A lot has been going through my mind lately. For one thing, im defenitly almost completely over my lost three friends. Basically, i thought we were working it out, but then they all just started blocking me on aim and myspace, and such, soo i just said screww it. But it is still taking some time to get over. Theres a part of me that wants to let go, but the part thats saying "Who cares" is taking over..i guess?! Theres still a part of me that misses my neighborhood best friend, and my carefree Amber and Kayla, but i gues i have to accept what it is. Im making it sound like i miss them a lot more than i do though. Really, for sme reason i dont know, i dont care. I say the heck with it. They're not very trustowrthy in my book at all right now. Im kind of angry that i cant trust anyone anymore. Not even Sam or Emily. There great friends, but i considered the other BEST friends, and look what happened to me. Ha. Life is life..
Another thing. I hate being compared to change, or old shoes, like on Trishas blogs. Im not change. I shouldnt be the thing she drops because she feels like she wants change, I think the only thing holding me back right now, is knowing how easily all three of them were able to drop me as a best friend. Like i meant nothing to them..that hurts i guess. Not really though. I guess im glad to be rid of their carcasm and gossip, i helped them, and in a way they used to help me. Im not trying to create an army with my friends against them, like they think. Maybe i should..who knows?
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